On my twitter I write to random famous people in hopes that I will be lucky enough to get a reply cause somehow that will justify me having a twitter. Lame, I am deeply aware and yet I continue to do it.

A few weeks ago, I wrote to an athlete that had been recommended that I follow by several other people. I started following him and wrote him once just to see if he would reply. Since, I’ve gotten very addicted to “Scrabble” online I thought I would offer to play him. This brings up another subject but I digress for this blog. He wrote me back and was nice enough.

*I am deeply aware of the shallow bone in my body which craves attention and acceptance in such an odd way. I am nearly grown out of that crazy obsessive nature that teenagers and other people go through, although I can totally understand why some people would chose to put me in this category.*

One night I have this dream where I am at a party with him and his friends and decide to pull my signature pick up move (patent pending). I pull the move on him and let’s just say the move is very complimentary when pulled. He looks at me and asks me not to ever do that again. I always try to place people in the best light in my dreams, although there are moments where it could be better. And being that it was a dream the way I dreamt it made it like he just slapped me in the face. I pull back in horror and can’t even hear the rest of the party around me, of course this would be the part where I wake up.

This made me think of a friend I had back in college. I won’t use names for fear he’ll actually read this but someone had to do it. We were once on a road trip with another friend and were partway through the first leg of the trip, he blurts out exactly what he was thinking at the moment. The friend and I turn to each other in disbelief to make sure that we both heard the same thing and casually pretend that it was okay to say that. It’s never okay to say that kind of thing out loud EVER!

I’m sure that we’ve all at a Phoebe moment from Friends in the early years where Monica would remind Phoebe to filter her thoughts before she said things and Phoebe would forget to do that and say something completely Phoebeish. I’m sure that you’ve thought things about people and things that you’re thought about saying but would never say in real life. Perhaps you’re had moments like that in your life or perhaps you’ve known people like that.

What are things you would never say to people that you wish you could say?

I had never really thought about this until I saw it. I think that this is especially true for me these days. Don’t get me wrong I’m not fronting or anything I just feel as if I live several different lives all mixed into one which sometimes don’t blend.

I have a work life which excels and has its own roller coaster ride and I can never quite tell if I’m doing well or if I’m doing poorly. I suppose if I were doing poorly I would have lost my job, right? Then again I often get mistaken for a high school student in this environment and since most people don’t know me they are always asking me questions about myself, the job, or leaving their thoughts.

I could swear that my personal life is nearly non-existent since for the most part I have been concentrating on saving money and not really doing that much. I just hung out with my BFF and her significant other and they happened to drop the bombshell about their upcoming trip out of the country like it was no big deal. Of course, she assumes she told me and then when I couldn’t find her in coming week would be really confused as to why I wasn’t notified that she was out of the country! I’m really trying to get out there and change things in this area so that I have more of a personal life, but those changes are still in the works.

Then I have an internet life which includes this blog, a tumblr, youtube, and facebook. None of those have really bleed together, but they do happen to bleed into my personal life and my work life. Seriously, what would the point of having a facebook be if you didn’t have a life in the real world? This blog is mostly where I write and post things that I think are important although I have been doing very badly at that these days. The tumblr which I have been obsessing over lately because its so easy has mostly pictures and very little writing. It’s quite sad and pathetic really. The youtube has only 1 video though I keep intending on wanting to make and add more videos. I follow and watch random videos on there mostly makeup gurus which I find fascinatingly intriguing in the oddest sense.

I have a twitter and that tends to bleed over into everything. The work life somewhat, the personal life somewhat, but mainly the internet life where it bleeds, youtube and tumblr. I find it very odd that, that is the only place where my life really blends together.

I never really meant on having so many separate sections of my life, but somehow it happened. Does anyone intend to do anything that seriously? Is it like having different groups of friends? I’m not sure. I definitely have a public life, a private life, and a secret life.

Tell me how many separate lives do you have?